What made you stop being an addict?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

This was February 2019.

Why cant I add weight to my lifts even though im completing my sets? Every time I try to add more weight I cant even complete one rep.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

How does a person become transgender?

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Did you swallow cum the first time you sucked a penis?

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Read that again ☝️

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

Why do most men who date ugly women brag like it's some big accomplishment, when any guy can pull an ugly woman?

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Why is my elder sister so mean?

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

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I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

Have you ever accidentally found out that you were about to be fired?

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

If we do not know the name of the father of a child, e.g. a foundling, an illegitimate, etc., then to whom should the bin or the binti of the child's name be applied?

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

And I can also talk to them now.

Why do people immediately disregard subjects such as flat earth, without opening their minds/taking time to research?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

Is it wise to SECRETLY expose a narcissist by telling others that he/she is a covert narcissist?

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

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Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

It’s been over a month since I stopped taking sertraline but why do I still feel side effects like brain zaps and anxiety mood changes? The root cause of anxiety it’s your thinking and I perfectly master that better than before so it’s hard lately.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

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Now how do you quit your addiction?

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

I did it in my administrator's office.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Just keep trying